I’m happier now that I’ve lost hope
I can settle into the pain

I can see what is possible
in what really turned out
of the worst case imagined

I’m happier now that I’ve lost hope
and don’t suffer the endless
reachings for and mournings after
what will never be

I can see what really isn’t so good
about what really is
and what isn’t so bad

I’m happier now that I’ve lost hope
and can figure out the many how tos
in this that really is

But how

There is so much to do
so far to go
to reach the me I want to be
the person inside I need from me

how can I work through all the work
how can I suffer through all this pain
how can I for now just hang on

The work is in the work
the doing in the doing
And the exit lies at the end of the path
that starts at the entrance I’d wish to avoid
The door to the storm is the door to its end

So don’t run
though it may feel the same
for time and self
are still moving through all

Time carries us on
even at times we are fallen down
Watch the progressions. And remember

Past haunts
future terrifies
but now…

What is so strong about
all this not now
that allows all but now to be

What pulls so hard
against the moment
against just this instant

Oh that it could only be
oh that it could only be
just now