I have tried to run from self
I have tried to deaden self
I have tried
to hide my self

I have tried to know my self
that is the self know by others
that is the self known not to me

I have tried to be the self
that is the self
that is known but alone to me

I have tried to catch my self
to wait for self
to urge my self to be

I have tried to reach for self
and I have been most cruel to self
And I have yearned
to be a friend to self

Yet of all these I wonder
what have I learned of self

This person who just last moment
was who I remembered
now someone else
who in another moment
will return

I am confused by change

This world a way
I’ve come to know
to depend upon
till in that moment
is not

I too
this swing
to this other
before returning

I am confused by change

Which is this world that is around
that seems both the one
as well the other
and both together

This world of one
and then the other
I am confused