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the world that is real
closes in
and closes down
upon me

the world that I believe
the is that I know
what I believe
surrenders to it
and can survive it not

have I not been told
one thousand times
it is not mine which is the real
and yet…

what I know
will not go away
to this convenient
this easy
other

but it is in this world
where goes on this ceaseless battle
between these two
and in the end
it can be not both

this other
would close in
and close down
upon me

no

between some reality of which I hear it spoken
and the world of which I know
I cannot but believe reality I see
I cannot but make it out
to be this that is

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it is never enough it seems
for my mind
which seems to be always turning
to the minds of others

Other minds
why is it always other minds
that know so much better
what for my mind is ok
that know if I am ok

Other minds
why is my mind
never as sure of my mind
of my self
until other minds agree

Other minds
to other minds it seems
is my mind always turning
always turning to others
to know what ought be
for me

what might my mind be
if it were enough
that the turning be
just a turning to me

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this
this is it
the one
what I have been waiting for
who I have been waiting for

but something else
something else happened
something else is here
something else now in front of me

but I cannot see it
what I can see
is what was not

there is was not
there is might be
there is now

I see what I missed
but I miss what is
in front of me to see
to feel

I know so well
how much better
what was not would have been

I know so well
how much better
what might be
would be

I am convinced I do
but I do not

It is in front of me
what is now
It is in front of me
to see
to feel

It is now
and I am here

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It is fallen apart
this life
that was too big
and it it is now
in pieces

It was too big
when I tried
to do this all
and I could not
and it was then
in pieces

And I could not
but then take one
only one
of the pieces
and I did
and it became done
and then there was the next

And now I see
it was too big
until it was
in pieces

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