memories
of a time that is good
of others who are warm
of a me
I wish I could be still
how strong the memories
how distant the past
how present the pain
how much I long
to reach that past
which could heal me now
it is in my mind
I know it remains in my mind
but my heart is breaking now
and the memory
is
is
I do not know where
where is this past
where is this pain
where is this memory
where is this now
this memory
it is in my mind
I know it remains in my mind
the past remains with us
in a different kind of now
yet so far from now
as to feel but only
a now which is no more
but it is in my mind
I know it remains in my mind
but in that past
was it not too then in my mind
did I not know then
because it was then in my mind
that thing which now a memory
was then a thing in the now
what my mind
knows still now
can I not know now
that good
and that warm
and that me
that is beyond time
can I not now seek
can I not now know
that which is beyond time
what can I
what can be now known